“ …
I’m preparing for the breakdownYour t-shirt lost its smell of you
And the bathroom is still am mess
Remind me why we decided this was for the bestBecause I miss you love
…”
Those words really touched me. I knew it was over – we just spoke on the phone and we had decided that this was for the best. For days – weeks the song “Miss you love” by Maria Mena was the background music to my life – it was like the song was written only for me. I listened to the song all the time and if I didn’t listen to it, I kept singing it in my head. It expressed exactly what I felt and I guess helped me realise and accept the feelings I had but I still didn’t know how to deal with them.
Sometime in June 2007:
It was in the middle of the night when I woke up. Something was wrong. I knew it. Something between us had happened. I couldn’t sleep anymore. I turned on the TV.
A beautiful song! By a beautiful singer I had never heard before. Beautiful, very emotional lyrics… lyrics that made me cry. I was sitting in that dark room in the middle of the night, listening to a song I never heard before and cried. I guess I knew that something was changing and that I had to accept it – it was just a matter of time.
“…
So why can’t you just hold me
How come it is so hard?
Do you like to see me broken?
Why do I still care?
Poor little misunderstood baby
No one likes to see a sad face
But I can’t remember life without him
I think I did have good days
I’m sure I did have good daysSo why”
“I wrote that song when I was still in a relationship but I realised one person already had one foot out the door – he had one foot out the door.” Those were Maria Mena’s words when I met her last Thursday in the studios of HR3, a radio station in Frankfurt. I had won a “meet & great” – a meeting with Maria Mena. She performed a few songs accompanied by an acoustic guitar. Before singing a song, she would always introduce the song and explain why and when she’d written it. After her performance we had some time to take pictures, get autographs but also speak to her and ask her a few questions. It was great having a chance to meet her, see and listen to her sing live and see how she presents herself so naturaly. She is one of the few artists that I believe is honest about her songs and doesn’t write them to make the money off of it but writes because it’s her passion; that’s the way she likes to express herself and make her feelings understood.
“…he had one foot out the door.” I never put it in words that well, but I guess that’s a pretty good way of explaining how I felt that night that I woke up, couldn’t sleep and watched the video of “Just hold me” by Maria Mena. Something was changing in my relationship; I just didn’t know what it was.
The next morning I checked on the internet who the songwriter was, what her CD was called and bought it two weeks later. The day I bought it I heard the song “Miss you love” for the first time and it became very important to me. It explained again exactly how I felt and what I was going through “I wrote that song when I was going through a break-up of a long distant relationship. I still missed that person and it wasn’t easy. … That song helped me.” (Maria Mena)
“…
I know the distance is a factor
But I stretch as often as I can
I hope to reach our hand any day nowPlease don’t blame me for trying,
To fix this one last time
I have a hard time as it isBecause I miss you love
…”
No, those songs weren’t written for me, but it seemed like somebody had gone throught what I was going through. Maria Mena’s songs and music helped me go though a very rough time last summer. I was very frustrated when I didn’t get tickets for her show in September. It was sold out – I didn’t try to get tickets fast enough. So I was even happier when I won the “meet & great” last week and had a chance to see her perform live, not even ten feet away from me and meet her, a very authentic, friendly and very beautiful person.
Maria Mena is coming back on tour in April next year! Her first show will be in Offenbach, April 1st. I am going and don’t even have to worry about the tickets this time: She invited me to her show! Thank you, Maria!
